I feel so depressed, cant stop crying?

my husband has let himself go and he was messing about with me because i had the remote he snatched it and made my finger bleed quite bad and so i hit him with a newspaper and hes battered me. And im so depressed he never talks to me anymore he let himself go and im thinking im trapped for rest of my life because my family and everyone think im the lucky one to have him. its a loveless less marragwe because i dont want him to touch me or come near me he has black teeth and spots he didnt when i got with him and hes let himself go. i dont work because i have kids with him and i have no money at all and shared debts.